August 13, 2012


I hate the guy sitting next to me. Well, maybe hate is a strong word and poorly applied in this situation, however I really don't like him. It is very difficult to explain why I don't like him, I just don't. All the girls, on the other hand somehow love him. He's nice, and always smiling but there is something about him that makes me despise him. Have you ever met somebody that you simply could not read? Somebody that is so good at being the nice guy but deep down you know he's probably murdered someone and has gotten away with it. That is this guy. I have no reason to not like this person at all and yet I do. It scares me to be honest. I feel like I can read people pretty well, except this guy. Maybe I don't read people quite as well as I thought and in that case this whole perception is null.

So here I sit at the bar writing and drinking as our subject (we'll refer to him as Guy) enters the pub. Guy arrives alone and chooses the seat next to me to settle. Since he is alone and I am obviously busy on my computer he decides to chit chat with the cute bartender while flashing that smile of his. We've all seen a smile like Guy's, a smile that haunts you. It's his lure of choice while fishing for attention. First he'll scan the room looking for some female prey and then BOOM, out comes the smile. Dangling it in front of those helpless little girls and suddenly they forget how to pronounce their own name. It's quite gruesome and yet impressive at the same time. National Geographic should put his smile on their cover and it would be one of the most influential images ever. One by one these helpless girls buckle. It disgusts me to watch Guy work. What are his motives?

I've come to the conclusion that Guy is either really good at hiding who he really is or he simply is nothing more than some good looking bait. Once the bait is taken the only thing left is the hook even though Guy never seems to keep his hook in anyone. This leads me to believe he is hiding something. What a horrible thing to do! Why even bother with the facade? One would think that pretending all the time would become too much work and at some point the truth would reveal itself, but not in this case. I've never seen someone so mysterious and it bothers me. Whether or not it should is a separate conversation, but it does.

After a quick meal and a beer or two Guy decides to pay his tab and leave. I am no longer on edge and decide to put my laptop away since I don't have to appear busy anymore. So here I sit, alone, scanning the room to catch someone to smile at.

February 13, 2012

Wilmington, Delaware

i am currently sitting back stage at our 2013 Chevy Malibu tour in Wilmington, DE.  we have a pretty aggressive tour this time around with flying to our first city and driving to the next.  this is how every week looks for this tour.  it makes for a pretty exhausting week seeing as how every Tuesday we have a morning show followed by an afternoon show which we have to break down and load up all the equipment after.  once the semi is locked we load up into our rental cars and drive to the next city. (sometimes several hour trips)

after we loaded up the semi in Lakeland, FL i was able to drive a short distance and meet up with my sister jen, and her girlfriend kristin.  it was great to spend time with them even for just a couple hours.  helps to keep me sane while on the road that's for sure.

but enough complaining about all of that because life is good.  i've been trying to not let the little things that go wrong have so much control over my moods.  yeah, i get frustrated and yeah, some people piss me off but it isn't going to ruin my day.  life is too short.  i'll still have my bad days but there have definitely been worse days than even these.

so far this tour is running smoothly.  we have a fantastic team, for the most part, and are able to get set up and torn down quite efficiently.  i have also enjoyed the friendships that have developed with my coworkers.  getting to know each person and learning about their upbringing and understanding how they came to be where they are is fascinating.  i decided to start doing push-ups while i work backstage.  we have 8 break-out sessions each day and i got tired of sitting back here browsing the internet or watching a movie so i started adding 10 push-ups during each session.  it isn't that much, however it works out to 80 more push-ups a day than i was doing.  so that's a plus, right?  i guess every little bit helps.  i've been able to work out a couple times a week in the hotel fitness rooms and have been keeping up with the water intake and eating pretty good.  i've been feeling great lately and am excited for this slow and steady change in my lifestyle.

i REALLY miss my dog, Sig.  he is staying with my parents while i'm away and they send me updates every couple days.  Sig is already at 40lbs and he is 4 months old!  awesome!  fast learner too.

when i get back into town i will begin moving all my stuff to a house in Roseville.  i will also most likely be looking for a roommate in April.  cheap rent.  i am very excited about this move because it gives me an excuse to go through all of my belongings and throw away or donate items that i no longer use.  almost like a spring cleaning for life.

finishing school has been on my mind A LOT lately.  but i always run into the same wall of "which direction to go".  it is quite frustrating.  i'll probably end up making a list of the ten careers i have thought about going into, close my eyes, and let the dart decide. maybe that's the only way i'll find progression.