March 23, 2013
It's Business Time
January 5, 2013
August 13, 2012
guy
February 13, 2012
Wilmington, Delaware
after we loaded up the semi in Lakeland, FL i was able to drive a short distance and meet up with my sister jen, and her girlfriend kristin. it was great to spend time with them even for just a couple hours. helps to keep me sane while on the road that's for sure.
but enough complaining about all of that because life is good. i've been trying to not let the little things that go wrong have so much control over my moods. yeah, i get frustrated and yeah, some people piss me off but it isn't going to ruin my day. life is too short. i'll still have my bad days but there have definitely been worse days than even these.
so far this tour is running smoothly. we have a fantastic team, for the most part, and are able to get set up and torn down quite efficiently. i have also enjoyed the friendships that have developed with my coworkers. getting to know each person and learning about their upbringing and understanding how they came to be where they are is fascinating. i decided to start doing push-ups while i work backstage. we have 8 break-out sessions each day and i got tired of sitting back here browsing the internet or watching a movie so i started adding 10 push-ups during each session. it isn't that much, however it works out to 80 more push-ups a day than i was doing. so that's a plus, right? i guess every little bit helps. i've been able to work out a couple times a week in the hotel fitness rooms and have been keeping up with the water intake and eating pretty good. i've been feeling great lately and am excited for this slow and steady change in my lifestyle.
i REALLY miss my dog, Sig. he is staying with my parents while i'm away and they send me updates every couple days. Sig is already at 40lbs and he is 4 months old! awesome! fast learner too.
when i get back into town i will begin moving all my stuff to a house in Roseville. i will also most likely be looking for a roommate in April. cheap rent. i am very excited about this move because it gives me an excuse to go through all of my belongings and throw away or donate items that i no longer use. almost like a spring cleaning for life.
finishing school has been on my mind A LOT lately. but i always run into the same wall of "which direction to go". it is quite frustrating. i'll probably end up making a list of the ten careers i have thought about going into, close my eyes, and let the dart decide. maybe that's the only way i'll find progression.
November 10, 2011
Dallas
October 28, 2011
but what does it all mean, basil?
i love sleeping. there are many nights where i don't sleep very well even though i am tired and worn out from the day's activities. other days i can sleep in for hours and wake up feeling more tired than i did when i fell asleep. falling asleep with someone in my arms is one of the best feelings in the world. breathing rhythmically as we fall asleep and waking up hoping the other person doesn't smell our breath before we brush.
now i'd like you to think about some of the dreams you have had throughout your life. we all have those weird ones that we have remembered over the years because they were so abstract. maybe you remember dreams that involved significant people in your life. have you ever had a dream about someone who has passed away? it is very interesting to experience a dream like that. most of my dreams of passed family members are as if they were simply in the background and i have had a few where they have talked to me about something. waking up was a weird feeling. i have laid in bed for an hour after waking up, simply trying to remember the entire conversation in the dream and interpreting what it meant. it is quite interesting to say the least.
what about a recurring dream? stop reading for a second and think about what it was, who or what was in it and where it takes place. now don't go assuming im a dream interpreter or that i follow all of that stuff, however i do believe that our minds are very complex and capable of great things. when we are asleep our minds are free to roam and explore the infinity that is our imagination.
i had looked up many interpretations of dreams involving spiders and apparently there are quite a lot of people who have spider dreams and even recurring spider dreams. most of the websites out there say that a dream about spiders on your body mean that there is a strong fear in your life at the moment. when the spider is on your face it shows that you are feeling complacent and afraid of making big changes in life.
October 27, 2011
never take friendship personal
i have always had the idea that i have surrounded myself with trustworthy people. i put up plenty of barriers between others and myself and don't really need another reason to put up more. these walls have caused many hard times in my relationships with girls as well. i am a frustrating individual. i know that. that is why it means SO much when i allow you beyond those walls. it is quite the risk for me. it's like a roll of the dice with the rest of your money on the line. i don't want people to be able to shake my world up, i don't want them to have that power, that control over me. it scares me to be honest with you. i only have one heart and would prefer it to stay in one piece for as long as possible.
i always thought that i chose decent girls to date. in fact i don't just let anyone into my life. sure i have many female acquaintances but very few who REALLY know me emotionally. being vulnerable scares me. so girls, if you ever get beyond my emotional walls it means i truly trust you.
several weeks ago i discovered that my best friend of nine years had slept with my ex-girlfriend (while we were dating). a friend of mine had told me a few things to watch out for and i denied it and defended my best friend. because that's what best friends do. even though this person had a pretty valid point i stuck up for my best friend and said that i would trust him with my life. because that's what best friends do. a few weeks had passed and i had this feeling in my stomach. i just knew something was weird so i asked my ex-girlfriend over chat, and it all came out in the wash. i confronted my ex-best friend over text (for fear of going to jail for assault if i saw him in person). sure enough, he admitted to it. he kept apologizing saying, "it was an addiction that i kicked in july. i can honestly say i am free from it." i wasn't aware that betrayal was an addiction. nine years of my life wasted on someone who would betray me for a few "rounds" with my girlfriend at the time. not to mention my girlfriend... classy dame she turned out to be. young and stupid i guess. ugh.... it sucks because even though we weren't dating i still cared for her as a person. not so much any more. that's just something i never thought would happen to me. my girlfriend cheating? that would never happen to me! my best friend betraying me? that would never happen to me! both of them happening at the same time???? HA!
well thank you ex-best friend and ex-girlfriend for strengthening my emotional barriers THAT much more. thank you for making it THAT much more difficult for the next girlfriend and friends who have to work even harder to gain my trust. thank you for showing me that those closest to me can't be trusted at all.
wednesday morning i flew from pittsburgh to chicago and i slept most of the flight. well, all except for the five minutes i was fighting tears while the thought of losing my best friend this way haunted my mind. it is not as frequent as it used to be but im not sure it will ever go away. i've never been so broken as i was that day. it just hurt. i am moving on. i have forgiven both of them but removed them from my life. i don't care what they are doing these days or for the rest of their lives. i hope i never see them again and wish we didn't have the same friends.
i truly have lost most of my trust in other people. sorry if i come off rude or cold.... that's just the way it will be for a while.
thanks, friend... thanks for wasting nine years of my life.
September 18, 2011
why, Yes!
September 12, 2011
put it in your pipe
September 9, 2011
...off guard
thoughts collide like bumper cars and slowly burn away.
and when the smoke clears... who are you now?
steal away like thief in night with my emotions in tow.
and when the fuel is gone... where are you now?
cut me down with every word and send me on my way.
and when the blood dries... what are you now?
September 8, 2011
... funny the way it is
August 19, 2011
...drag horse bag
July 26, 2011
Seattle
This was uploaded on my HTC EVO using the Blogger app. Let's see how good it is.
Friday afternoon most of the team had flown in to Tacoma and settled in. A handful of us decided to grab some lunch before heading into downtown Seattle to enjoy the night. Since we didn't have to set up till Sunday, we definitely took advantage of the night. Seattle is nice if you enjoy the "city vibe". Many late night venues cater to the swarms of youngins looking to drink, dance and demoralize themselves. Overall the people are nice. Saturday I slept in and took it easy. I meandered around the hotel and walked up and down the street to see what was around and get a lil exercise. I definitely miss mountain biking and will be hitting the trails much harder than I was before. I am trying to figure out a way to get a guitar on the tour with me. I was told it can ride in the semi truck and now I want to see if my bike can come along too! (fingers crossed)
Set up on Sunday went VERY well. At 7:30am we started to unload the truck and set everything up. We were done by noon. This is quite impressive and I must give credit to the awesome team I get to work with. These people work hard and get it done. On my end, set up of the audio/visual stuff went quickly because I am familiar with everything now. All the equipment is right where I left it and I expedited the set up by leaving a bunch of stuff inside the home audio rack connected. After set up was complete I asked the producer how I have been doing and he said, "EXCELLENT! Better than I expected!" That made my day! I have been working hard and being a team player as much as possible. Glad to see it getting noticed. We chatted further and he had mentioned that before he was promoted out of the position I now hold, he was making 80K a year for a handful of years. My plan is to make that much within 10yrs of being here. LET'S DO THIS!
Yesterday was the first day of presentations and time seemed to go by quickly. Four of us decided to hit up a seafood restaurant for dinner, so we quickly changed at the hotel and departed. The food was fantastic. I'm pretty sure we all four went back to the hotel and went to bed early.
This morning I woke up around 5am and got ready. I then made my way down to the hotel lobby and waited for the breakfast area to open. Hotel breakfasts aren't that good, but it's something, and it's free. After eating and departing the hotel we arrived at the Tacoma Dome where the convention is being held. They are building a really cool looking museum right next to the dome. It will be interesting to come back here and walk through the museum at some point.
As I was prepping for the day I overheard one of the presenters talking to my producer about something that peaked my interest. The conversation was about suicide and I had caught the end of it. I politely asked who the presenter was talking about and he said, "my younger brother." The comparison of his situation to my family's was scary. We were soon lost in deep conversation about the mourning process and how other people sometimes avoid you when they hear the word suicide. He put it like, "It's weird when some people learn of a suicide in your family. They avoid you almost as if they don't want to get a disease." I can relate to his comment. Sometimes, however it goes the other way and someone decides to explain to you how stupid and selfish that person was for making that decision. blah blah blah.... Back to my point. You never know what someone else is going through and how much you might have in common. It was great to talk to him about his situation and get to know him on a level other than the show.
I am currently in the middle of our afternoon show and will be working a third show from 6pm-8pm regarding roadside assistance for the Chevy Volt.
July 19, 2011
still standing.
July 18, 2011
July 12, 2011
booyah!
finally a breather
i feel MUCH more prepared now than i ever have. i feel that i can now make my production flow smoothly.
i have not been sleeping very well for some reason and today it all finally caught up with me. thank god we had a short day and were able to return to our hotel rooms at 4:30pm. i decided to take a two hour nap. it is now 12:39am tuesday morning and i am about to go to bed.
tomorrow i will be assisting the lead engineer during the show. lets hope everything goes smoothly.
July 11, 2011
TRAVELING CALENDAR
Have a great day everyone! :)
Philly Day 2
July 10, 2011
Philly Day 1
I decided to enjoy the 2 weeks prior to leaving for Philadelphia for the new job. I had a fantastic time hanging out with a bunch of friends, going to a Tiger's game, bonfires, mountain biking and a whole bunch of other things. I am going to miss all of that while I am away. However I will be keeping you all up to date on what is happening while I am on the road... er in the air. So hold on tight, cuz here we go!
I started my trip off just like every other excursion I've ever endeavored with last minute packing. I literally took clothes out of the dryer, folded them, put them in the suitcase and walked out the door. I forgot nail clippers. It took me 35 minutes to drive to the airport and another 35 to check in, go through security and get to my gate. I'm a pro at this traveling stuff. We boarded the plane and waited.. and waited. Ends up some of our baggage hadn't been loaded yet and the pilot kept apologizing over the PA. "Sorry folks, this is not acceptable. I would encourage you to send some emails to Delta voicing any frustration with the delay." So that's what I am going to do. Maybe I can get something out of it. We finally took off and the flight was nice and problem free. well.. almost.
The girl seated at my right was wearing long jean shorts and I quickly noticed her leg hairs were longer than mine. This was gross. Especially because plane seating is tight and I'm a big guy.
I landed and quickly made my way to the baggage claim to find my suitcase on the belt right then. Perfect. I was set to go. Shuttle to the rental car place, drive off in a brand new Impala with Betsy. Betsy is a very nice woman whom I'll be working with for a few days. After a 45min drive we arrived at the Holiday Inn Express in King of Prussia, PA. This is a nice hotel. I have my own suite with two large HD LCD tvs, couch, table, fridge, and two air conditioners. I can get used to this. The entire team is staying at the same hotel so it is easy to get to know everyone. Everyone decided to go grab a quick bite, however the only place in walking distance was Hooters. gross. The food is NOT good and I'm not much for the..."scenery". I ordered carry-out and spent the last couple hours in the hotel room getting settled in.
I have to be down in the hotel lobby at 6:45am to meet up with everyone and head to the production site. My team will be unloading all the trucks and getting all of the gear opened and start setting up. I will be assisting the head a/v tech for the next few days. Pilot show is this Tuesday!
I will be updating my blog every night of my tour.






